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smoking kills...

oh yes it sure does! and my dad knows it too but i guess that doesn’t scare him enough to stop. i really wished he would! dec 31 2008 he said he will for the new year but didn’t even try. well he did for 2 days then went back to the killer habits. i also bought him the gum to help but he didn’t even open it so i returned it in jan 2009. and ever since then he’s been getting worse. red eyes, coughing really gross (you can hear its not a healthy cough) and oh man but i did schedule a physical for him so i really hope the doctor tells him he NEEDS to stop smoking or everythings going to go down hill. he’s not getting younger. so i am just hoping he’ll stop! its crazzzy because he wakes up in the middle of the night just for a smoke… and after he freshly brushed his teeth he smokes.. WOW right?

cyber world!

i know i may look like a loser since i am just following a couple of people but that’s because i don’t really want people to hear me vent, honestly i would rather not read about someones problems myself lol. anywho, i decided to start blogging to see if this will release some stress and random thoughts in my head. i just started today so we’ll see how things go. :)

Very first blog!

Hello cyberspace! So this is my first blogging session. I really wanted to create one after watching the movie Julie&Julia. This by the way was an excellent movie! French food looks amazing but I don’t know if I can eat it every day because I love spicy food and the French don’t really. But anyway, I am mostly going to use my blog to vent. School started so my 2 people I can really go to won’t have time to hear me bitch. They’re my two true best friends. That leads me to another point..

So I have a friend that tried committing suicide by a police officer. the doctors said that he was supposed to die that night because he lost ALL of his blood but they pumped more than 6 peoples blood into him (donate blood everybody!) he was stable at first, no activity was going on and then started recovering. Slowly but surely, although he did lose a liver. He is doing excellent now. Walking and talking and everything! he’s on house arrest so everybody has to visit him at his house and every saturdays he has 2 hours to go out. so my friends were meeting up with him every saturdays (they went out to eat mostly) i am the only people that works in the group, i work at Harkins, so of course i’ll be working every weekend. i don’t understand why they don’t get it but they don’t. so this one saturday i finally had off. i told my friend i was able to come finally! but that morning my uncle went through a bitch-fit and usually when he’s in a bitch-fit i clean my room and bathroom so that he doesn’t take his bitch-fitnessout on me. and i missed the two hour lunch so i let my friend know i couldn’t make it and he didn’t text back so i texted a few mins later asking what time was the hangout at his house that same day and he said “no” so i asked my other friend that was going and he said “yeah its still on,everybodys going you should go too!” it was so obvious i wasn’t invited. since then daniel has not been talking to me at all! no myspace, facebook or text. one day he posted a myspace status and said “you are clueless. ha ha” and i shot back “i am not clueless, i could careless”. i know i know, pretty harsh right? well i was just mad at the time and usually when i’m mad i say pretty stupid stuff. but thats how he got into the whole mess anyway (suicide) by not talking about his feelings or actually telling people that they were bothering him. OH and another thing is i was looking at his myspace comments to see if he had been talking to someone about him being mad at me and i saw his cousin respond “oh don’t listen to her” so i look on her page (thank god it wasn’t private) and he wrote “my friends being a bitch saying everything was all my fault”. for some reason he is always asking me questions whether he was right or not about the whole cop shooting issue. he is really scared that he is going to go to prison but i keep telling him that i think he will get probation, thats only when a good lawyer. he doesn’t want that because to him its like being guilty. i tell him like it is. i’m not like my other friends and trys to sugar coat shit. i tell him that the state isn’t going to set him completely free, probation was better than prison and he DID technically assault a cop. even though he didn’t mean it, he just wanted them to shot him. he was walking towards 3 cops with a knife. I mean I know I’m right! If you disagree please discuss this with me. The state doesn’t see him trying to commit suicide they see him assaulting a cop so that is why I say probation is better than prison. And I guess I’m a “bitch” for telling him the TRUTH. Unlike my other friends.. just saying stuff he WILL like to hear. By saying “oh you’ll have all the charges drop. don’t worry!”I don’t know.. and now my friend isn’t talking to me. And I’m not talking to him! All my friends are telling me that I should talk to him but why should I when all I’m saying is “life happens” and he’s being a baby and running away from the most down to earth friend ever! I’m very raw with him because he needs to know the truth and not believe he will get all the charges dropped, that’s ridiculous.